I'm sure we've all been there before, in a rut through life, not knowing who we are. Days and nights flow and enlightenment never visits, yet we yearn for it. The truth of the matter is that enlightenment never happens because we are afraid of it and afraid of the repercussions.
My nightmare is my relationship. My girlfriend and I sit in silence most of the time, not knowing what to say to each other nor knowing what to do with each other. It has been like this for months now. Most would break up, but we're determined to stay together; although I don't see the point in staying together but she does. I'm afraid. Afraid of what I might feel if and when we do break up. Afraid of reaching out to her and her not being there. Ultimately, I'm afraid of myself. Enlightenment has yet to visit me and I'm yearning for it.